Post by LILY NICOLE EVANS on Apr 24, 2010 20:23:28 GMT -5
The summer days were so warm and peaceful feeling, and the carnival definitely helped aid in the escape of the troubled life of Lily Evans. Determined though she may be to win this war, it was still difficult, especially on the likes of a nineteen year old young woman freshly graduated from school - no matter how talented though she may be. Something like the carnival was more of a necessity than anything else - something the girl needed to forget the stress of her daily life as a member of the Order of the Phoenix.
So far she had been enjoying herself walking around the area by herself. Sure she could have come with friends, but she felt as though she needed some time alone to help clear her head. After all, it would be difficult to forget about the war for a few brief hours if she were accompanied by someone she worked with in the Order. No matter how much fun they may have together, chances were high that something would come up in conversation about a recent attack, and that really was the last thing she wanted to think about right now.
The rides themselves were all so entertaining to watch, not to mention the sound of all the children and their families having a good time. Everyone was trying to escape the tribulations of the war, and they all seemed to be doing a better job than Lily. Riding on them gave her a brief thrill - the wind blowing back her hair. She found that closing her eyes made it feel so much better as well, soothing in fact.
Alone the rides were a bit dull, and after a while she ended up thinking about the loneliness she now felt. Well, it turned out that her idea of coming alone was just as bad as coming with friends. Instead of thinking about the fighting that was going on, she was now thinking of the losses they had suffered, and the fear of being left alone. Try as she might, she just couldn't seem to shake the feeling of losing all of her friends to the Death Eaters. Their numbers just weren't high enough to stand a decent enough chance, and even though she knew she was worth at least three Death Eaters, it was still overwhelming.
By now she was walking around absentmindedly licking on a slowly melting cone of her favorite pumpkin and apple ice cream. The simple fact that the cool treat was actually starting to melt showed exactly how long it had been since she had purchased it and began eating it. With a sigh, she finally gave up on it, not feeling very hungry, nor really in the mood for ice cream in the first place. She had bought it on a whim hours ago to try and pick up her spirits, but she had never been the type to get excited over food, so it really hadn't been much of a good idea in the first place.
A bit tired now, miss Evans found an empty bench and plopped herself down. With a small sigh, she watched as the magical families all passed her by, the children leading their parents by the hand. Finally, something that gave her a small smile, but it wasn't one of happiness - rather, it was one of longing. Her current job at the ministry involved looking after the young children of the others who worked in various departments. Her original intention in taking this simple job was to be able to talk to everyone who came in and dropped off their kids to see what kind of job she might prefer. Instead, she grew quite a fondness for the children - so strong, in fact, that it planted the seed of desire in her to have her own.
The only problem, however, was in finding someone who wanted the same thing. While James had matured in the past couple of years, Lily was quite sure that he wasn't mature enough to be a father. Hell he wasn't even mature enough to propose. In her mind, if he wasn't to the point of making any type of commitment other than to fight, then children were just out of the question. In fact, he was still too much of a child himself, and so were his best friends. The only one amongst them who just might be ready for children may have been Remus, but he had his reasons for not going in that direction.
Running her fingers through her long dark red hair, Lily continued to gaze out upon the crowds that walked before her. Her attention drifted out further away from herself as she watched, and began to wane even on the people. It wasn't long before her bright green eyes completely lost focus on anything in particular. The girl was completely spaced out, something that was uncommon for her, though seemed to be a growing habit.
i'm sorry if it doesn't exactly sound in character - my boredome came out a bit more than i wanted, but once james shows up it should pick back up ^-^
